may it please the court? (Yes, you may)

April 2, 2017 § Leave a comment

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Lucky Mike picture before moots tomorrow!! May the power of Mike be with me hahaha

Gotta catch an early night and just be happy I did my absolute best for moots. And more importantly have fun – law school is the rare opportunity where you can defend someone without having any actual IRL ramifications of what you say in court. 

May the court be pleased with me tomorrow 😉 

absolute nonsense

February 12, 2017 § Leave a comment

Yesterday and half of today was quite a chill day and by chill day I mean I accomplished absolutely nothing. Zilch. Nada.

Well, I did finish The Liar by Stephen Fry which came in the mail on either Wednesday or Thursday but I was busy freaking over my half-finished memo for the moot that I didn’t have the time nor will to crack it open. But I finally read half of it yesterday and finished it this afternoon and it was definitely worth the read! Some parts got extremely confusing, especially towards the end but it’s one of those books I bought for the author and not for the book and that kind of makes my expectations not as high? It’s weird because when I buy a book for a book or its story or whatever, I have an expectation that it should meet this and this and that. But if I buy it for an author, it is usually because I have loved a piece of his other work or his writing style, and I am more lenient with the plot holes or inconsistent writing, weird characters etc.

In any case, this would conclude my Stephen Fry reading binge and I have finished both his autobiographies and two of his novels, and I don’t expect to read any more of his books (I think he has one more novel, but the premise wasn’t terribly exciting so I won’t be getting it)

Of course, if Stephen publishes another biography or another novel, I would probably end up getting it anyway. I like that his writing is so flowery and purple prose-ish and self-indulgent, but always seems to be aware of its own pretentiousness. Reading his novels after reading his biographies was honestly so jarring, because his autobiographies don’t even look like they have gone through editing, and he slapped some incoherent thoughts onto a microsoft processor and it became a book. You can HEAR his voice in his words, and not just in his autobiographies but even in his fiction novels. You can hear Stephenisms in some of the dialogue or the expressions. Though to be honest, I wouldn’t really recommend his books to my friends, mainly because I just really liked him as a person first and that was what made me want to buy his books. It’s as much self-indulgent as reading can be. In the same way J K Rowling could publish a shit novel, and all the Potterheads would still snap it up with the same rigour.

Anyway, I also think that I like reading Stephen’s self-indulgent, stream of consciousness-type writing because my entire life now is filled with reading concise, mechanical and rather instructive-type literature. Although this was the same in JC, I also have to write in such simplistic, concise and rather clinical language and style.

So in a sense, it’s just nice to read something really flowery and inconsequential, words that aren’t thought through twice or a hundred times, words that babble and flow from absolute nonsense.

Of course, that is not to say law is clinical – some of the best judgements I read have literally made me laugh out loud and there is definitely merit in writing that is clear as it is concise. I remember having really awful writing style back in secondary/JC where my sentences would just go on and on and on till the Armageddon came. I think it’s just how my brain thinks, it’s all really messy and convoluted up there. (which is why I struggle with speaking up spontaneously in class) So learning how to write concisely, and the beauty in simplicity has made me appreciative of this new skill I have picked up thanks to law. Of course, there is no such minimalism in my blog writing, mainly because I can’t be bothered to type properly in this space, because if I had to think and overthink how to write proper sentences and syntax or whatever in my leisure time, my head would surely burst.

I probably haven’t mastered my law content to write beautifully yet. If I didn’t know my lit texts in JC, I probably couldn’t have written half the essays I did well in. In fact, I doubt I would be able to reproduce a lit essay, half the quality I could have two years ago.

This post was a load of balberdash wasn’t it? I still have so many books to read so I will hold off on buying more. Though I have a few I have in mind to order from bookdepository. Another week perhaps, when I don’t have yet another memorandum looming on the horizons…

 

The F Word

February 8, 2017 § Leave a comment

I feel utterly terrible as with most things that accompany me submitting a memo/skeletal. I feel terrible because I wasted the better half of last night doing absolute rockshit for my academics and going on this weird dissociative fandom binge on House MD’s wikipedia page. Oh god and it’s not like I have a skeletal due in three days ha ha ha ha ha.

Fuck.

fuck fuck fuck.

Fuck is my favourite word because it contains all the fury and frustration that I want to convey in a less vulgar word but can’t seem to find a suitable replacement for. There is no non-vulgar alternative to fuck. Fuck is glorious and expressive and exuberant and angry. How can a single word contain so many multitudes as the simple “fuck”? Fuck – when it is not aimed at someone in a derogatory way (which applies to all words really if you think about it) is not a bad word. Why is it a bad word? It’s only bad when people use it to hurt others. But then there are so many non-vulgar words that people use to hurl abuse and to bully with – stupid, idiot, fat, thin, boring, weird, creepy, lame, small, big, virgin, slut. And we don’t shove those words into the box of “crass” and “vulgar”. (And how fucking ironic is that most of these words are just two sides of the same coin?)

In any case, how is “fuck” vulgar? It’s not intrinsically repellent, not like the word “moist” that sends shivers down one’s spine. “It’s not polite!” some would decry, and I agree, it’s not a word I would use within polite company. But that doesn’t explain why “fuck” is a bad word. Fuck is like a metaphorical verbal squeeze on a stress ball, it is the culmination of all your inner feelings of hatred, frustration, self-loathing, and the whole shazam of unexplainable messy, messy feelings welling up into a lovely, perfect, one syllable word of vulgarity. But maybe it’s this association with vulgarity that makes “fuck” so enjoyable to say. There are a lot of similar words – duck, luck, muck, suck – but you don’t see me screaming “DUCK ME!!!!” when I realise I have a skeletal submission due in three days.

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February 4, 2017 § Leave a comment

For I have to believe that all the feelings that I have descried are not unique to me but common to us all. The sense of failure, the fear of eternal unhappiness, the insecurity, misery, self-disgust and the awful awareness of underachievement that I have described. Are you not prey to all of those things also? I do hope so. I would feel the most conspicuous oddity otherwise. I grant that my moments of “suicidal ideation” and swings of mood may be more extreme and pathological than most have to endure, but otherwise, I am surely describing nothing more than the fears, dreads and neuroses we all share? No? More or less? Mutatis mutandis? All things being equal? Oh, please say yes.

– Stephen Fry, The Fry Chronicles 

half-ass thoughts

February 2, 2017 § Leave a comment

Mentally tired, but not exhausted.

Today was a late day because contracted ended at 5.30 and I only got home around 6.45. On one hand it was a good catchup and banter session with YH on the train (old friends are the best, it’s like wearing a comfy home tee that you never have to think too much about) But on the other this meant I felt like I didn’t really do much revision…

I also didn’t do much on the moot thing (I promised I would do it regularly up till memorial submissions) but I had to read for crim and prep for tomorrow’s class and I can’t sacrifice my actual graded subjects for a moot that is not going to affect my academics you know… But at the same time I can’t help but feel like this moot is important and I need to pour in my 110%. Then again, today’s contract lecture did cover a substantive part of restraint of trade and this really helped fortify my basic understanding of the clause 3 of the contract for the moot, so technically doing this moot is not only helping me with my actual academic work (so yay! benefits!) but the lecture is at the same time a indirect benefit for my moot prep so I shouldn’t beat myself over not reading cases or whatever today for the prep. Anyway I did spend around an hour reading a textbook on Restrictive Covenants and it seems that it is the most applicable textbook on the subject that I can get so I have most of the materials I need for research (plus lawnet and lexis of course)

Whenever I catch myself being too serious/stressed for the moot I try to remind myself that I am just doing this moot for fun, and while I am going to put in my very best effort in it – I should prioritise my actual school work over it because at the end of the day, whether I do well at prelims is not going to be reflected in my finals and stuff. Plus, I’m just a Y1 and I will have tons of opportunities in the future. This is just a really beneficial learning experience for me, especially since the question is related to the stuff we actually have to study for in exams ^^

Probably not going to go for the pr0 b0n0 chillout because it’s literally 2 hours… And that means I need to drag my sorry ass out of the house earlier than I would have because crim class starts late tomorrow and there’s not torts lecture for me to attend. I think I will see how up I am for it, though I don’t really care that it’s compulsory since 1. nothing in uni is compulsory 2. one of the rare fridays I get the whole morning + afternoon to doing work and taking a more chill pace 3. I don’t really want to go

If I wanted to go, I would go. I’m not the kind of person who stops herself from going to fun events because she wants to prioritise studying. In this case, I don’t want to go because I’m just quite tired and I wanted the afternoon off and not have to be cheery and sociable you know? Sigh.

I know life isn’t about study study study but I feel like I don’t have time to do any other thing but study especially if I want to do well in school. I wish I had a hobby like ballet dancing, or tennis or ice skating or basketball or whatever but I don’t? The only thing that I do that can be considered a hobby is reading. But then again isn’t reading kind of like what I’m doing in school? Read read read read – just that I read fiction instead of cases. But in a way, aren’t cases just like fiction (aside from the fact they are actual real life events)? Everything is organised into a story, but you have to expend brain power trying to find out why a story is constructed in a certain way and what principles and policy considerations underly it.

I’m rambling but I guess what I want to say is that can reading be considered a hobby? It’s not terribly exciting, but it’s the only thing that I actively wish I had more time to do. Maybe I’m just not a sporty kind of person with sporty kind of hobbies, nor am I a musical kind of person with music-y kinds of hobbies. Can law be a hobby? oh dear.

Answering my 17 year old self.

January 28, 2017 § Leave a comment

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Was looking through my old private-private Twitter account and came across this post from nearly three years ago. (also realised how angsty I was in JC omg, I thought I was a happy child? Apparently not.)

Seeing that I am gonna be the “20-year old me” soon I’m going to retrospectively answer my 17 year old self about what happened since 6/10/14

How was A Levels? – Not bad! You finally did that H3 lit you were planning to do and there were some hard moments, but you won’t regret doing it

Did pw go alright? – It did 🙂 OP went better than expected and all of you got As

What about uni? – You didn’t end up going to the UK, but you are still pretty happy staying here after all. Also you got into law sku! Congrats kid

Were interviews hard? – Law interviews went great for both! You would really enjoy the Asia Global Law sku one because you got to talk about lit and books and it was all really jolly and fun

Are you still the same person you were in 2014? In some ways yeah, but I think you will become much much happier ^^

I hope I can use this line one day.

January 16, 2017 § Leave a comment

“What’s the law for?” 

“The law enables people to choose for themselves – within the limits laid down – how they will attempt to maximise their own separate, portions of happiness.”